What is our true nature?

Why is that we often run after a thing,struggling very hard to get it and after getting it we realize its side effects?Why is that what we want we never get and what we have we are never satisfied with?
What is that we actually want?Is it pre-written that we always have to suffer or is there a way out?
Do life have any meaning or are we just wanderers in interplay of happiness and sadness?
In all we often end saying in agony," why me?"

Maybe if we get to know our true nature,all our suffering would end.

First start with what do we actually want. All of us just want happiness.It is not our desire but our need.
We work day and night,years after years for it.
Just we don't know how to get it(- happiness which is everlasting-the causeless happiness). Some find it in achieving something which satisfies their ego and thus make them happy,some in things,some in people and some in animals.
But all these are temporary and are accompanied by fear-fear of loosing them and to resist this fear we work hard  during which we experience sufferings.Strive for happiness itself causes suffering.
So,we need to look for happiness in something which we don't possess(as with possession comes fear of its loss) but something which is eternal and we are itself part of it.

These sufferings would end up if we realize our true nature.
Our true nature is divine,ever-present,permanent, infinite and zero at same time,non-dual,never-changing yet always new(sat-chit-anand).
We are beyond space and time.Words can't describe us as words create duality but we can experience our true self.

Now that we have come to know our true nature and that it can give us eternal joy,question arises how to experience it?

There are two ways of experiencing it:
1. Surrender yourself to life.Surrender all your desires(but not that need). Realize that you are a witness to  
    which worldly matters to whom these appear and disappear but never did you participated in it.Things just      happens to you-they appear and disappear.
    Remove your attachments with everything.You must not have attachment either with attachment or    
    detachment. Just witness.
    When we watch a movie sometimes afterwards we get attached to the characters and feel us in them.We
    start feeling all emotions attached with the characters according to the situation.But when we realize that  
    we are not these characters but the witness to this movie,all our emotions vanishes.Similarly,realize that    
    you are not participant but witness of these worldly matters.
    Then, starting learning about your true self  by any of yoga practices. To learn ,you need two things:
     i) Surrender your ego.It would take some time.You need to know that you are not achieving something to         boast about, or feel superior about.All of us have same 'I' just we differ in level of our consciousness.
        Surrendering your ego also means while meditating sometimes you would experience some stable state         while other times you won't be getting there.Don't start pressuring yourself about this.Be a friend with
        yourself.Have patience.Learn from everyone.In the end ego will vanish and consciousness will dissolve           itself in 'I'.
     ii)Remove your ignorance.It is the greatest hurdle in this path.Start accepting things against your
        beliefs.Just remember things which you don't understand right then.With time(just to say,,actually time is         meaningless here),everything will unfold.Meditate on 'I' to which experiences are appearing through
        consciousness and don't attach yourself with experiences.With time everything will dissolve and
        only the cause('I') will remain.

        Now we move on to second way.
2. Start any of the yoga practices which are just ways to focus mind and make it stable on one thing.
    Experience everything around without analyzing anything.With time you will start having  
    experiences(miracles) around you but don't ever get attached to these miracles.Start reading Upanishads,       Bhagvat gita, Quran and Bible. Read them from perspective of that eternal 'I' where ever there is talk  
    about god.What all these will do is that mind will surrender saying, "I am not the master,you are my
    master".

In both these processes we are trying to get the real master in its place which is thinking itself as a servant.
The mind which is a servant but thinking itself as a master will get back to its place.
In first process at first we surrender mind and then meditate on 'I' and in second we feed the mind to surrender and then meditate.
(Note here that due to words it seems that mind is evil although not,and words are creating duality separating
 mind and 'I' which are both one.)
     
At the end all (experience,experiencer,what is experienced) will dissolve and only 'I' will remains and you will "attain" causeless happiness. The work which we did to get happiness would hold no meaning.We would work but now to express this happiness.

Time-an illusion or a reality?

What is time? Does it have a beginning and an end? How to measure it?
These are some of the questions we often ask ourselves but with no success. Or may be the question asked itself is senseless. May be there is nothing like time or it might be possible that it has a true existence. If it exists, then the natural question arises that what are it's traits and how can we control it.

Whenever we think of time , picture of a clock runs naturally on our mind screen. But it is not time itself. It is just a measuring instrument. But what does it measure?
May be it is measuring continuity of events. But events are defined in memory. Without a memory
events have no existence. Suppose, somehow you loose your memory. So, now your don't have definition of things nor any events 'recorded' in mind. You have also lost ability to distinguish as ability to distinguish comes with experience.

What is time for you then?
We see that we will loose our sense of time. We see that time is a platform in memory where events are woven. When we recall or when we 'run our tape of memory in mind, a sense of continuity
is made parallel to which time runs'. When we bring our consciousness 'in' these events, time seems to hold a reality although temporarily.

It follows that memory itself is temporary and without consciousness memory has no meaning.Loss of memory would cause loss of countinuity of events and make events distinct thus sense of time vanishes.

So, we conclude that from a perception of temporary things time is a reality but from the perspective of eternal-which is our true nature, time is meaningless.

Who am I?

Suppose, your name is Rohan. Then, obviously everyone will call you by this name. Now, suppose you loose your arms in an accident. You will still be called Rohan. In another accident you loose your legs too. You will still be called Rohan. Consequently, you loose your eyes .Still, you will be called Rohan. If you now loose your head and are somehow alive, you will still be called by the same name.
But, if you possess all and are dead - you are then just a dead body and nothing else. It will be said that Rohan is dead but this body no longer possess a name.
Thus you see when having nothing and still alive-you were called Rohan. But  when dead 'you' possessed no name.(note this you - which is still there even when you are dead.)

So, there exists 'something'  having which 'you were called Rohan'  (you were never Rohan though)
and when this goes away you were striped of this name. This 'something' is your consciousness.
Body is just expression of this consciousness.

But note that the "feeling of I" was there always immaterial of presence body or consciousness. This
feeling of you never changed even for a moment. This is actual you . Consciousness just arises and falls 'in' I which expresses itself through body. I always remains.

The difference between 'living' and 'non-living' is that living 'possess' consciousness while non-living doesn't . But 'I' of both is always there.